guilty as charge

i've been so bad...huhuhu... i'm guilty now... and i don't know what to do..so better write it out.. well, yesterday i had the time of my life...i went barhopping with some friends at school..at first we were at MTS but we got bored so we went to autoshop...it's my first time to be there.. the place was really great.. and i had so much fun...too the point that i have to lie just to be able to stay late... i promised myself earlier that night that i'll go home at 11:30 so i called at home to inform my sister that i'll go home late because the IT Congress is not yet over by 11..

(yeah i know a very lame excuse)but unfortunately my "barkada" came.. they're going to hangout at autoshop too...it's dece's birthday and i really want to be with them.. so i called my cousin and told him the whole situation..i convinced him to cover up for me..(he couldn't say no of course.. i've done a lot of covering for him..so it's his time to return the favor..hehe) we agreed that if may aunt will call him he will just say that i'm already asleep..after calling my cousin i called home again and it's my aunt who answered the phone so i told her that im gonna sleep over my cousin's house because we will be doing some programming project ( gosh! im such a liar! ) we had a little argument coz she's forcing me to go home but i insist on what i want...

so i got it.. i was able to party till dawn... at first i was kinda worried.. what if's keep popping out my head... so i just assured and prepare myself of the possibilty of being caught..so i wipe away all the worries on my mind and enjoy the night..and i succeed coz really had so much fun...i gained a lot of friends and i was able to bond with my "barkadits"... it's just that i keep transfering from table to table.. hehe...checking out my two sets of companion...and take note i was not drunk..haha..who would got drunk in a one glass San Mig Light??.. or was it Red Horse??..whatever!..hehe..i was just forced to drink for "pakisama".. and one more thing mate fooled me! argh!! bad girl!..hehe.. i was really thirsty and i saw her drinking something..because of the dim light..i thought it was ice tea so i eagerly drink it (she didn't even warned me)..when i tasted it..to my disgust it's red horse..ewww! i really hate the taste of those drinks...anyways that drink didn't affect me that much..just a little headache..hehehe


a lot of things happen in just a short span of time...

*chelsea discovering that ramil has gf
*darryl was broken hearted
*mate and e***'s unexplainable sweetness
*i find out that r**** and k**** are smoking
*the "teleserye" drama of nyke and oseng
*i saw erik again...
*i had a really long and serious talk with kakai...

we ended up at Ryan's house at around 3:30 am..just stayed there to hang out..we watched White Chicks.. i watch it again.. for the 2nd time..hehe..i didn't get any sleep at all... at around 7 am.. we all went home...

when i arrived at home i was really sleepy..(i even slept at the cab..poor me!)
the faces that welcomed me were say not very pleasant...they're having breakfast.. my grandma told me to sit on the dining table.. olah! they interogated me.. they're asking a lot of questions and i just stared at them..as if im not there( what do you expect...heller!)..but when they threatened me that they will tell this to my mom.. i panicked and suddenly my hangover vanished.. i defended my self and started lying again..(urgh! hate this! i know i'm not good at lying...my facial expression always backfight me) why am so transparent??..but this time luckily i wasn't caught...but i think i appeared rebelious when i talked to them.. i'm always like this..if i believe that i'm right i would defend it even if the argument takes forever...i think they're not used to it unlike my mom...i won't stop unless i ran out of reason or alibi.. and i would really talk back...other people may find it rude or something but that's my way of explaining my side...you see parents think that they're always right..they will continue to think that way unless you voice your side of beliefs and priciples...generation today are far way different 10 years ago..they may not undestand it coz they're sticking on to their own Point of view too..that's why it's our role to explain to them...

that's what i really want to do..expalin to my grandma and my aunt..but they're so close minded and conservative.. they don't even want to accept new ideas .. and i think they live in they're own world years away behind me...and i hate it! i wish my mom will listen to me... and not to them...

i'm guilty because i lied..i lied because if i tell the truth they may not allow me..so why would i risk it??...if this will continue i dnt know what will become of me.. i may grow rebelious (the family black sheep)..how i wish i won't...but maybe time will come that i'll understand them and they will understand me...i'll pray for that time to come...