lost in my own emotions

[mood ||emo]

[music | ironic by alanis morisette]

there are really "down moments" in your life..when your self-esteem soars down and any optimistic thoughts availble seems to lost its sparkle in cheering you up..insecurities rule and confidence had gone astray..

there's no room for light for all you see is the dark side of life...

how cruel it is..

how unfair..

you can't pin point any reason for feeling that way, and yet you feel it..

you've been screaming ..

but no one hears..

you want to bare your soul

yet nobody gave a damn..

so you put yourself in a world where happiness doesn't exist..you begin to hate..and taste the bitterness that go with it..but then again..it will pass..you have the choice to keep the feeling or to let it go and embrace a new moment..a new beginning..

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misadventures of "dakilang tanga"

[mood | |silly]

[music | we belong together by mariah]




-happy day..no exams and no class in OS and Accounting..but we still have to pass our documentation on project management..the task was given last week and we're not done yet because we're busy with the exams..so we decided to spend the afternoon at roselle's house and do all the paper works...nothing much to say..

anyway, yesterday was one of my "katangahan moments"..and if you must know i have a lot of em'..lolz i was really exhausted the night before because i studied for my cisco exam which was very long..finish studying at 6am..and i slept for about at hour or so then head straight to school to take the exam...then supposed to be theo exam will follow but luckily our teacher postphoned it..i have a 4 hour break after theo so i went home to sleep...but unfortunately..the four-hour sleep was not enough for my system..woke up at around 6:45pm..i was about to wear my uniform..and then holla! i glance at my watch and realized the time..i missed my philo class and i'm way late for project management ..what the heck..hehe! i forgot to alarm my phone..tsk..tsk..thinking of my stupidity i went back to bed and continued my sleep..ZZZzzzzzz..i've gone to dreamland na..hehe

i found out later that night through marci that kuja,padotz,jc,chris and alain were absent also..haha..wala mi ngsabot..bwehihihi...

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a thought on life

[mood senti]

[music this kiss by faith hill ]

"Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everythingin this life has a purpose. There are no mistakes, no coincidences, all events are blessings given to us to learn from"

-Elizabeth Kubler-Ross-

sometimes lessons in life are thought the hard way..we need to be hurt or to feel pain to be able to learn..but we should not allow problems to conquer our strong disposition..we have the power to maneuver our life..to decide and choose what we want to be..i have my own share of experience and i would have never survived if not for my optimism..you just have to realize that life is too precious to waste...it's better to cherish it and make the most out of it..let's all live a happy life..let go of the anger and hatred..show your love and be grateful for all the blessings that you have instead of nagging over what you don't..im not claiming to be an expert on this matter..im just writing on behalf of my experience...


*thoughts on friendship *

friends come and go...we have different sets of friends all throughout our lives..when we were young..we had our childhood friends..then highschool friends..and now college friends...but how many of them will last forever? well, that thing is really upto us...if we insist on keeping friendship forever then it will last forever...distance maybe a problem but it was never a hindrance as long as we keep the communication line open..

i miss some of my friends and how i wish i could spend more time with them.. do silly and stupid things together..have fun and laugh our hearts out...like we used to do before..but then again..i can't bring back time.. =( so i'll settle with what i have now...

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it's a GOOD thing to be a girl

[mood cheerful]

[music| real by plumb]

*it's good to be a girl, to be full of heart and soul, and lots of attitude and adventure, and dreams to keep us company along the way.

*it's good to get excited about the little things, like chocolate and hugs, new shoes, and songs on the radio, and have fun like only we girls know how.

*it's good to be a girl, to be able to wear what we want to, and cry when we need to...and not to have a reason, and always have friends who will understand just what we are going through.

*it's good to be both strong, and soft at the same time, and change our minds in the middle...and be serious one moment and silly the next, and run circles around the boys who will never be able to figure us out.

*it's good to be free like a girl, and gutsy like a girl, to think as deeply as we feel, and know what we want and work hard to get it.

*always, no matter what, it's good to be a girl.


39 Other Reasons:

1.The friendships between females are richer, deeper, stronger, more intimate, and more affectionate than those between males.
2. Females are responsible for the two biggest advances in computer programming.
3. We can hug our friends without wondering if she thinks we're gay.
4. We can hug our friends without wondering if WE'RE gay.
5. We don't have to fart to amuse ourselves.
6. You can cry without pretending there's something in your contact.
7. If you're not very attractive, you can fool 'em with makeup.
8. If you use self-tanner, it doesn't necessarily mean you're a big loser.
9. Sitting and watching people is all the entertainment you need.
10. You'll never have to decide where to hide your nose-hair clippers.
11.When you take off your shoes, nobody passes out.
12. If you don't shave, no one will know.
13. If you're dumb, some people will find it cute.
14. You can dress yourself.
15. Your hair is yours to keep.
16. If you ARE bald, people will think you did it on purpose, and you're really chic.
17. You don't have to pretend to like cigars.
18. If you marry someone 20 years younger, you know you look like an idiot.
19. You're rarely compelled to scream at the TV.
20. You and your friends don't have to get totally wasted in order to share your feelings.
21. Your friend won't think you're weird when you ask if there's spinach in your teeth.
22. When you get a million catalogues in the mail, it's a good thing.
23. Sometimes, chocolate truly can solve all your problems.
25. You'll never regret piercing your ears.
26. You can fully assess someone just by looking at his or her shoes.
27. You'll never discover you've been fooled by a Wonderbra.
28. If anything on your body isn't as big as it should be, you can get implants.
29. You can tell which glass was yours by the lipstick mark.
30. If you have big ears, no one has to know.
31. You can be attracted to someone just because they're really funny.
32. We got off the Titanic first.
33. Our boyfriend's clothes make us look gorgeous. Guys look like complete idiots in ours.
34. We've never lusted after a cartoon character or the female figure in a computer game.
35. We don't look like a frog in a blender when dancing.
36. We can congratulate our team-mate without ever touching her butt.
37. We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there.
38. We can talk to people of the opposite sex without having to picture them naked.

39. And finally...We have enough SENSE to realize that the easiest way to get out of being lost is to ask for directions!



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all in a day

[mood tired!]

[music| breathe by michelle branch]

*techie talk*

just the right mood to set myself into blogging..well, im actually tired...i formated my pc last night..and i practically waste almost the whole day installing all the necessary programs and files back...

my pc runs faster now..i did some changes...i basically follow what sir bikoy said on partioning the hard disk...i had a 4o gig HD so i partitioned it into two...10gig for drive C and 3o gig for drive D.. i installed the OS in C and the rest of the programs on D...i also converted the harddisk from Fat32 to NTFS coz our teacher said it allocates files efficiently..i guess I've proven my worth as an IT Student because finally i'm applying the concepts I learned in school...

*i did hangout at the library today*

at about 2pm today...i abandon my pc for awhile and went to school to submit our requirement in IM277...on the way to jacinto gate [after submitting the paper] i passed by the library..so i decided to go inside since it's too early to go home and Norton Antivirus might not yet finish downloading updates...it's really been ages since i visited the library..they have this new policy on bags..those with a width of more that 12 inches is not allowed inside..(share lng..hehe)..i stayed there for about an hour....browsing new books and etc..just walking around...when i was about to get out I passed by the Circulation Section in 2nd floor..and I came across this nice book... "Chocolate for A Teen's Dream: Heartwarming Stories About Making Your Wishes Come True.." I've been looking for this book for months now.. I first saw it in NBS..but when I came back a week after to buy it, out of stock na...err! ..but well, God's will..hehe..coz' I finally found it..and I'm the first borrower of the book...nice..nice.. I've read the other book "Chocolate for A Teen's Soul" and it was good..but nothing beats the original "The Chicken Soup Series[ favorite ko yon xmpre!]..well, maybe the Chocolate Series were inspired by the Chicken Soup..napansin ko lng pareho silang pag-kain..hehe!


*journal*

ever since, i can remember..i was never a fan of taking notes...i just do it if it's a requirement..just like our EJ in Cisco..but i can't seem to get the point or the purpose for making it a requiremnt..i mean what's the use..pwede namn iprint or accessible namn xa over the net...dba?! hay...so "dapat mgsulat na ako..".. hehe.. up to now module 1 pa lng ako...2 modules to go pa... aja aja fighting!

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just a smile

[mood senti]

[music just a smile by barbie]

JUST A SMILE
by
Barbie Almalbis

I wanna tell you everything,
I want to, hear you breathe

I'm walking down the street
I'm lost at sea
but out of the crowd you smile
and you're all I see

you make me feel like I
can get lost inside your eyes
I feel closer to the sky
When you save the day
with just a smile
just a smile

I wanna meet you someday soon
'cause I know you in my mind
everything will be different
when I have you right beside

you can take the whole wide world
with your boyish charm
but even as you pull me close
I won't just stay in your arms

you make me feel like I
can get lost inside your eyes
I feel closer to the sky
When you save the day
with just a smile

Well it's for you and everyone
I thought I've searched the world in vain
now look at me
and the search is done
we will never be the same
not the same.

you make me feel like I
can get lost inside your eyes
I feel closer to the sky
When you save the day
with just a smile

oh you make me feel like I
can get lost inside your eyes
I feel closer to the sky
When you save the day
with just a smile

just a smile, a smile
just a smile

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love and time

[mood happy]

[music goin crazy by natalie]

Once upon a time there was an island where all
the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness,
Knowledge, and all the others, including Love.

One day it was announced to all of the feelings
that the island was going to sink to the bottom of
the ocean. All the feelings prepared their boats to
leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She
wanted to preserve the island paradise until the
last possible moment.

When the island was almost totally under, Love
decided it was time to leave. She began looking for
someone to ask for help.

Just then Richness was passing by in a grand
boat. Love asked Richness, "Can I come with you
on your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but
there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and
there would be no room for you anywhere."

Love then decided to ask Vanity, who was passing
in a beautiful vessel, for help. Love cried
out, "Vanity, help me please." "I can't help you,"
Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my
beautiful boat."

Next Love saw Sadness passing by. Love
said, "Sadness, please let me go with you."
Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but I just
need to be alone now."

Then Love saw Happiness. Love cried
out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But
Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear
Love calling to him.

Love began to cry. Then she heard a voice
say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was
an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that
she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they
arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love
realized how much she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was
it that helped me?" "It was Time," Knowledge
answered. "But why did Time help me when no
one else would?" Love asked. Knowledge smiled
and with deep wisdom and sincerity
answered, "Because only Time is capable of
understanding how great Love is."

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the tagboard is not working =(

[mood ||pissed off]

[music| good ridance by greenday]



i'm having problems with my tagboard....i guess everyone subscribing to myshoutbox.com is having trouble ...when i visited my friends' blog , their tagboard is not working either...since friday pato ganito...guys any plans of transfering host?? hehe...well, i do have plans if this doesn't work til today i'm gonna get a new tagboard...anyway, i have a long test today in database..our quiz last friday was postphoned ...but i had along weekend so i wasn't able to study and now..im in a cramming state ..hehe.. but still have time to blog ...ngexx...study na ako...bye! have a nice day to all of yah! ^_^

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on my way to a gig

[mood||excited]

[music | run by kitchie nadal]

yipeee! my cousins and I are going to MTS ...there will a lot of bands there..and sugarfree is the main highlight..i've seen them perform once and it was really great..anyways just drop by to blog a little...i'll update this later after the gig...i'll go now coz i can hear my sister's voice across the room nagging me to get my butt outta here..hehehe...ciao!

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friendship vs. love

[mood|| confuse]

[music| say that you love by mymp]




good morning peeps..this is the very first time that i post an entry this early...well, i'm supposed to be studying for my database exam but i don't feel like doing it..hehe! [katamaran again!]

*emote mode*

these past few days i'm really confuse...i know this question had been ask a million times but i never thought i'll be able to ask this to myself... Will I ever give up FRIENDSHIP for LOVE?... I can't even answer that now thus leaving me confuse and wondering [weighing the pros and cons].. See it's very risky...what i'm sacred of is that what if Love won't work..will you be able to regain back the friendship...? Maybe yes, maybe not....once you take the risk there will be no turning back...I guess the standing point is how great is the feeling....maybe if I'm sure of what I feel I won't be doubting anymore..[i wish i am] this is crucial decision and i hope i'll be able to do this right.. with NO REGRETS in the end! [hay...]

Say You Love Me
by MYMP


Don't you know that I want to be more than just your friend
Holding hands is fine but I've got better things on my mind
You know it can happen if you'll only see me in a different light
Baby, when we fin'lly get together, you will see that I was right


Say you love me (just say you love me)
You know that it could be nice (could be nice)
If you'll only say you love me (say you love me)
And don't treat me like I was ice, hoh

Please love me (just say you love me)
I'll be yours and you'll be mine (you'll be mine)
If you'll only say you love me, baby (say you love me)
Things would really work out fine




You know that it could be nice
If you'll only say you love me
And don't treat me like I was ice, hoh hoh
Please love me, woh woh woh woh woh


Say you love me (just say you love me)
You know that it could be nice (could be nice)
Say that you love me (say you love me)
Woh woh woh woh woh

(Just say you'll love me)
(You'll be mine)
(Say you love me)

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i'm back!

[mood| | hyper]

[music| stop think by alicia parcs]

im finally back to my "blog-life"..i haven't post for almost a month for no reason at all...kapoi lng blog...hehe.."katamaran" again..but well, im back kc enjoy na..may new bloggers na..badjoy, shynne and mae ann...[welcome to blogspot..hehe! geeks na sd mo..hahaha]..

anyways, i took my Cisco exam today..and because of katangahan i missed 1 item [what's new]...wala lng boring na sa lab..hahay..im signing off na..! bublets!

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