the simple life

[mood | | cramming]

[music | wordplay by jason mraz]

busy, busy, busy..hay na lng life..it's "hell week " again.. i have two exams this week.. philo and cisco..and sana ndi na madagdagan.. i went through a lot today but i'm so so tired to blog about it..i still need to finish my theo project which is due tomorrow..tsk..tsk..this is so sick.. i've been wanting to work with this crap 3 days ago pa..but tinamad na nmn ako..so well, i end up cramming again..when will i ever learn?? duh!

anyways, i've been watching "The Simple Life: Interns" courtesy of Kuja (thnx for downloading the episodes)..it's really funny..Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie are certified bitches! haha..they can't do things right because they're messing every internship they take..hehe..their probability of survival in the real world is 0%..lols! by the way, i heard that in season 4 nicole richie will no longer be in the show 'coz she had a conflict with paris.. kimberly stewart will repalce her..(i don't know the girl, the article mentioned that she's the son of Rod Stewart) nicole spice up the show with her naughtiness and bitchy attitude..i wonder if it will still be that funny without her..seriously i can't find any sense in watching it..haha..but who cares..i'm having fun!

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emo mode

[mood | | ......]

[music | my happy ending by avril lavigne]

"sometimes letting go is so HARD..but it's easier than holding on to something that isn't THERE..."

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ramblings out of boredom

[mood | | booorereed]

[music | no such thing by john mayer]



i can't believe i'm exchanging friendly messages (courtesy of friendster!) with a guy from my high school crowd..he's one year my senior and was sort of popular with the girls before..it seems unsual for us to be doing all this little chit-chat for one main reason, we don't know each other..ahmm..ok i know him..but who wouldn't ? he's one hell of a figure and not to mention he's my friend's ultimate crush..hehe..it all ends there..the connection i mean..we never had any chance to be acquinted or what-so-ever because of the "junior-senior rivalry" that held boundaries among us..our only common ground is that we graduated from the same school in high school and we're in the same university now..no big deal..i'm just amused on what technology can do these days..and oh i'm looking forward for more of these...^_^

blogging has been my resort to fight boredom..and i'm soo soo bored now..i'm not yet sleepy coz i slept the whole day thus explaining my wide-awake-state now..(time check-1:42am!)..did i already mentioned that i'm bored?! haha..i'm listening to John Mayer's soulful voice in the background..i've been playing his album since yesterday...i find it relaxing..and he's so pogi..i officially declared my admiration to him and his music..hay.. *smiles*

by the way i finally made up my mind on what series to read on..i chose The Mediator over Princess Diaries for no particular reason i'll be reading princess diaries after anyway! finish the first book(The Mediator 1- Shadowland) earlier and i'm loving it! The story is about a 16 year old girl name Suzannah who has the ability to see dead people/ghost. From being a New Yorker her life suddenly takes a drastic change when her mom decided to marry a guy named Andy who has three sons.Suze end up moving with them to OC leaving city life behind.So anyway her mission is to lead lost souls to their destination (may it be heaven or hell!) and helped them fix their problems when they were alive! i had fun reading it..and if my eyes didn't sore i would have move on to book 2 directly..hehe


here are some random events that happened these past few weeks..



+dinner @ penongs w/ ken+
(august 18, 2005)

that evening sir bikoy dismissed us early..so we decided to eat at roxas.. there's this "ka-andawet" (hope i spelled it right!) a food festival/exhibit going on in connection with the Kadayawan Festival..but unfortunately we had a hard time looking for a table that would accomodate us all..while walking around, the rain suddenly pours..with no other choice we ran back to the school to avoid getting wet..due to the sudden change of weather, some decided to go home..but me, kuja, alain, chris, jutay, audrey and ken pursue the plan, but we went to penong's instead.. well, as what was expected it was packed with people..we have to wait for a vacant table..then when we're finally settled, we waited for our order..15 mins passed..still no food...30 mins..the table next to ours got their order and we came in first..haha..justice please..we're freakin' hungry..it was about 9 o'clock already, so audz follow up our order and it so happen that it was not listed coz the paper w/c was supposed to be submitted to the counter was given to us by the stupid waiter..duh! we waited for another 20 mins until we got our food..even though the service sucks, the food was really great..


+___________+
(august 17, 2005)

"he" invited me late that afternoon..i run out of alibis so i just agreed..after i watched b*witched with my friends, we had dinner.. i swear it was just a "friendly date"..it was awkward though..i can't help feeling that way and i don't understand why.. i'm extra quite the whole night.. i don't know what to think anymore..*sigh*


+ intramurals '05+
(august 11-15, 2005)

this years intrams was a bore..i didn't even went to all of the activities..parade was ok except for the fact that it was way hot and some uncivilized freaks howled at us when we passed by UM..cheering was fun but i was disappointed when our division didn't make it to the top 5.. they're performance was good enough compared to nursing or eng'r and to think those two divisions got in! (kainis!).. Of course Accountancy win!( as expected)..i'm happy with that for they truly deserved it..i didn't went to sayawtenista coz i don't want to go over the trouble of entering the coverd court again, like what happened during the cheerdance competition.. hahay..ateneo's next project should be the reconstruction of CC so that it can accomodate 7,000 plus students...


+theo reporting+
(august 9, 2005)

we had a lot of trouble than expected on the day of the reporting..we reserved for a TV/CPU and the AVR Staff said that the OS will be XP..but then it wasn't..so we need to transfer our PPT to a diskette but unfortunately the file was very large that it won't fit..so what we did was crashed in lab f610 and reduced our powerpoint..i took some of the pictures embedded in the file..it took as more that 10 mins to do it...when we arrived at the classroom our teacher already started the lecture on our reports..but thankfully he gave way so that we can proceed with our report..i don't care how we deliver it! all i know was that i'm very nervous due to all the pressures we went through! whatever.. i'm just glad we're done with it! ^_^

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The Three Things Survey

[mood | | sleepy]

[music | this side by nickelcreek]

The Three Things Survey
(from bianca's blog )

3 names you go by:
1. Donna
2. Donz
3. Donski

3 screen names you have had:
1. wander_gurl
2. guRL_17
3. blu_twinkle

3 physical things you like about yourself:
1. my eyes
2. my eyebrows (which projects my supladita look!)
3. hmmm...ano pa bah?! ah...my nose..i like my nose...^_^

3 physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. the scar on my left hand
2. my unproportioned feet..
3. wla na eh...

3 things that scare you:
1. exams..
2. momoh..(haha..paranoid tlga ako mnsan eh..)
3. maniacs and perverts..errrr!

3 of your everyday essentials:
1. music
2. go online
3. cellphone

3 of your favorite musical artists:
I have a lot of favorites so i'll have to sort them out...this is hard..but well here it is

1. Avril Lavigne
2. The Corrs
3. Matchbox 20

3 of your favorites:

1. Breakaway-Kelly Clarkson
2. Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)-Greenday
3. I'll Be- Edwin McCaine

3 things you want in a relationship:
1. Honesty
2. Trust
3. Commitment

3 lies and truths in no particular order:

Lies:
1. Destiny decides your fate
2. You can't resist temptation
3. Cats have 9 lives.. (hehe..can't think of any)

Truths:
1. Health is wealth
2. You can't please everybody..
3. There's no such thing as reality..


3 physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes
2. perfect smile..
3. height..(probably taller that me)

3 of your favorite hobbies:
1. Surfing the net
2. watching movies/tv
3. Reading

3 things you want to do really badly now:
1. eat..
2. sleep..
3. eat again..hehe

3 careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. IT Specialist/Programmer/Graphic Designer
2. Photographer
3. Writer

3 places you want to go on vacation:
1. New York
2. Hawaii
3. Paris

3 kid's names you like:
1. Sophia
2. Andrei
3. Miguel

3 things you want to do before you die:
1. Fall in love..
2. Trip around the World (dream on! ^_^)
3. Be a mother..

3 ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. I punch walls when I'm angry or frustrated..
2. I love playing computer games
3. My room is a mess

3 ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. I cry over sad movies/books..(or khit song pa..lols)
2. I'm fickle minded..
3. I spend a lot of time fixing myself..(hehe)

3 celeb crushes:
1. Brad Pitt
2. Ashton Kutcher
3. John Cusack

3 people that i would like to see take this quiz:
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2. Padotz
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sibling rivalry

[mood | | hungry]

[music | stay by cueshe]

i just finish reading Meg Cabot's All American Girl..it was simply great and funny! even though the plot was sort of common.. you know the geekunpopulargirl-turnedout-popularandcool.. i know its pretty childish of me engaging to such books but i can't help it..i just love reading them plus i'm a huge fun of meg cabot eversince..hehe

i can relate to the novel coz it tackles the problem i've been facing every waking moment of my life.. SIBLING RIVALRY.. i guess everybody experience this..well of course except for the "onlys"..

unfortunately, i'm the eldest in the family..so all responsibilities are handed down to me as expected..i've got no complains though for i'm already used to it..what i don't like is the fact that my parents tend to expect too much from me..like i'm supposed to be always good,respectful responsible, giving and the list goes on..in short, a role model for my younger siblings..the perfect vision of an "ate"..but the problem is i'm not perfect..not even close to it..i'm moody, hot tempered and well, i hate admitting this but i'm a nagger sometimes...i have shortcomings too you know and i can't get over them in an instant..

in our case, all three of us (me, my sis and bro) are in the midst of our teenage years.. it's very difficult to deal with issues concerning conflicting personalities..petty arguments can grow bigger and would often lead to never ending quarrels..

i have no problem with my sister coz she's the best sister i can ever have in the world..she's my adviser, fashion critic, partner in crime, ego booster and crying shoulder.. we have a LOT of things in common..specially in terms of music and fashion..it's funny really coz our similarities are often the reason why we fight..

on the other hand my younger brother ( being the youngest and the only boy) is a certified brat! i mean..hay..since we were kids he's constantly been a pain in the ass..he's the only person who can annoy me and worn my patience into its thinnest level..


10 Reasons Why I Hate My Brother

10. He enters my room without knocking.
9. He gets my things without my permission. (or even at least leave a note or something)
8. He is so "kuripot".. ( in the real sense of the word)
7. He acts like he's older than me..( ordering and bossing me around)
6. He often gets what he wants..(talking about favoritism..)
5. He has this habit of annoying me for no particular reason.( he just love to see my nose flaring with anger)
4. He's immature and childish..
3. He is very demanding..
2. He's insensitive..
1. He blackmails me..( and i totally hate this..argh!)

6 Reasons Why I Love Him

6. He's my brother
5. He protects me..(from perverts on the street)
4. He is very honest and frank on what he feels..
3. My opinion matters to him..(in choosing and buying stuffs..)
2. I can drag him anywhere (hehe)
1. He don't defy my purpose as an "ate".. ( coz he seeks for my advice and discusses his problems w/ me..)


so hate is greater than love huh..hehe..the hate part are just little issues compared to love..i'm stuck with him so i have to deal with those things..and to be really honest..our fights won't even last for 24 hours..lols.. i'm not holding any grudges or what..(i'm not capable of doing that..hehe!) ..it's just plain normal habitual fights common to every family..

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i'm fragile

[mood | | confuse]

[music | fragile by maria mena]

Fragile
by Maria Mena

I've been walking around all day,
Thinking.
I think I have a problem,
I think I think too much.
I've been taught to hold back my tears,
And avoid them.
But you make pain into something I could touch.

I've been walking around all day,
Laughing.
I think I'd be better off without you here.
And I bet you're sweet and hard to get over.
So I'll cry and people will stop and stare.
Now that's okay.
Let them stop and stare.

Cause I am fragile.
I am hopeless.
I'm not perfect.
But I am free.

I've been walking around all day,
Waiting.
And waiting is all I seem to do.
Cause I never get it unless I'm fed it.
But this time i'll just have to.
Yeah this time i'll just have to.

And I'm fragile.
I am hopeless.
I'm not perfect.
But I am free.

Say you're not around, Am I finished?
If you're not around, thats too bad.
Hope youre safe and sound, not alone now.
Cause you know I believe in you.

I'm still fragile,
I'm still hopeless,
I'm not perfect,
But I am free.

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seraphimz

[mood | | cheerful]

[music | at the beginning by richard marx]

Happy Monthsary Seraphimz
(3 years and 10 months)

+highschool retreat @ Sacred Heart Retreat House+

+erika,mick2x,vanesa +________+thea and me+ ________+chelz,erika & thea+

+my bday+_______________+kakai's bday+

+me,thea,rarai and nissan+

i miss these gals..*sigh* it's been like a month since we hangout together.. i guess all of us are busy with school and we can't get away with it..though there's a slim chance that they'll be able to read this, i'll post it anyway..hehe

april
..miss yah terribly..i heard you're doin' great..good thing you didn't transfer..OMG 5 months nata la ngkta..wahhh...=(

rarai
sorry about you and ****..cge lng oie..madami pa iba dyan..for the meantime savor singlehood.. *wink*

kakai
i haven't seen you for like 2 month na..(paramdam ka nmn!)..how's ur L life??..going strong i hope!

erika
musta na kayo ng boylet mo..harhar..he owe us a lot pa bya..and i'm gonna kick his sorry A** if he'll hurt you again..

mick
sorry about the late notice for mymp's concert..i really didn't know that you're interested pla..hahay..well, maybe next time..what happened to you're ur unli?? dli na lgi ka ngatxt..hehe

mabel
congrats sa cupping..and sorry ha wla ko nkattend..

dece
take it easy...you know na..hehe..

chelz
musta??...i heard ngdating na daw mom mo..hehe..nice..nice

vanesa
hehe..see around sa school van..i know career kayo ka sa studies..goodluck!

thea
wahehe..send my rgrds ky fafa myk..and goodluck sa cheering..oh well..i know you'll win..see yah later! wakeke

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soar high and continue dreaming

[mood | | okay]

[music | breakaway by kelly clarkson]

Dreamer
By Tanya Faye O. Ramiro
YOU contributor
Philippine Daily Inquirer-YoungBlood


DAYS before our graduation, I was already feeling a deep void inside my stomach, not excitement over getting my diploma. Dread, not celebration, was what was consuming me. Aside from the year I went to our village pre-school which was actually more like a day-care center, I spent two years in Miriam Child Study Center, seven years in Miriam Grade School, four in Miriam High School and another four years in the Ateneo de Manila University. Almost my entire existence was devoted to school! I found myself utterly attached to being a student, and so it terrified me to know that that was going to change. After 17 long years of school, I didn't think I would be good at anything but being a student. How was I going to fare now that I was no longer a student but a graduate? That was the questions that was eating me up.

We all have our share of ambitions we want to pursue and dreams about the kind of life we want to live in the future. In my case, my aspirations were pure fantasy. Once, I envisioned myself as a Hollywood actress, making multimillion-dollar movies, wearing glamorous clothes, being chased by the paparazzi and adored by fans. Being an avid viewer of National Geographic and the Discovery Channel, I also imagined myself as a world-renowned Egyptologist exploring the ancient ruins of Egypt and excavating priceless treasures and tombs that will finally be revealed to the world through my own efforts. And there was also one time when I fancied being a freelance artist creating works of art valued at thousands of dollars and proudly displayed in the world's most prestigious ...... continue

*a piece of my reflection*

I came across this article while browsing pinoyexchange.com.. and it's a great essay so i took the time of posting it here..i'll be looking back to this article someday (when i graduate..) to somehow inspire me and give strength to face the real "world"..

way back in first year, when asked on why i chose IT as my course.. i would often answer "Because I love computers"..now I realize how lame my answer was..yes i love computers..the fun of it..the thrill of surfing the internet and the enjoyment of playing and chatting..but i didn't envisioned it as a career! I can't see myself as a programmer (sleeping late at night and deciphering conflict codes) in the future..i've thought of shifting last year but when i glimpsed at my prospectus all the "shifting-sentiments" vanished..i been through a lot of hell with these subjects (esp. the math subjects! w/c i've grown to hate since my trigonometry teacher gave me a flat 60 in prelims!) and shifting means trashing all those efforts and time..

however, i'm glad that i didn't pursue that idea..i'm beginning to see some positive points in my course now..it isn't programming alone..i have a lot of options and that's the advantage (there's web design,graphics and animations which is way more fun)..IT has a lot of fields and according to one of my teachers, you can't learn it all, you just have to know your expertise and focus on it..

i still despise programming though, but i can handle some more semesters..and who knows maybe there's still a chance for me to actually like it..hehe!

like the author i myself is a dreamer and i dream big (what's there to lose? its free anyway)..i anticipate the time where i can truly live my dreams..but meanwhile i'll focus my attention to what is in the present and do good in my studies 'coz it will be my ticket to success!

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the truth about my dreamland

[mood accomplished]

[music sympathy by goo goo dolls]

It's been a while since i last blog, mainly because i don't have anything to write and for 5 long days i was not able to lay a finger on my pc...

My stay at home served its purpose. I was able to escape city life for a while and settle to my old lazy life...(hehe!) you know the eat-sleep-watch tv routine...and oh well i brought with me some books so I'll add reading to the list...What's there to say? Absolutely nothing! (hehe..nonsense noh?!)


So anyways, while i was there, my weird dreams reappears again. Transporting me to dreamland at night and leaves me wondering every morning. My dreams are just flashes of scenes like a series with no end. There are a lot of people involve. I know some of them but what's scary is that there are people with no faces. (maybe i just can't remember because I don't know them). I really believe that my dreams are connected to my reality 'coz i have experiences to prove it..

I'll cite one..this happened 5 years ago but i can still remember every detail of it...(errr!) Retelling this story gives me goosebumps...Here it goes...It was January 8, 2000 when my grandfather died (my lolo's brother). I heard the news 5 days after his death. I was studying here that time (I was in 2nd year high school at Holy Child) so I can't go home immediately. I have to wait until classes are over. So here comes Friday and I'm all set to go home but my mom arrived strangely postponing our trip. I have no choice but to stay...That Friday night my unforgettable dream occured...in my dream I was at the old house of my lolo (I'm referring to my own grandfather, not the one who died. ) I went to his room upstairs and what i saw almost blew my wits out of my system... my other grandfather (yong namatay) was on top of a floating coffin holding a candle, he stopped by my grandfather's window (oh by the way the window of the house was that of the classic Spanish style..yong capiz na movable) and persuade him to go with him. My grandfather rise up from his bed and stand near the window. After a few seconds he sits in the coffin, when he saw me by the door he waved goodbye and the coffin moves instantly. The whole time I was just standing there crying as I watched the coffin disappear in the sky...

That's the end of it because my mom woke me up. She asked me why I'm crying but I couldn't answer. I'm so scared because the dream felt so real. So instead of answering her question i asked her if my grandfather is ok or if anything happened to him. She was silent for a while..then she told me in a low voice "Patay na ang lolo mo..kahapon pa.." I could not believe what I'm hearing...I confronted my mom why she didn't tell me earlier that day. She said that she's just looking for the right timing because she knows that it will be hard for me to accept it. I was very close to my grandfather and I love him dearly. I told my mom about my dream teary eyed...She comforted me but I wasn't able to go back to sleep because I'm afraid that the dream will continue. That morning me , my sister and my mom went home with grief. And the rest is history....What I realized was, that dream serves as a sign...maybe my grandfather want me to know about his death that's why he chose to enter in my unconscious state...

Well, that's pretty long, I completely retell the story bit by bit. But what I'm trying to say is that sometimes my dreams become mirrors of my reality. I experienced a lot of deja vu (The illusion of having already experienced something actually being experienced for the first time). There are instances wherein I feel like I've seen or experience this particular moment before and later on I'll found out that I've dreamt of that scene long before it actually happened.

Dreams can be defined in a lot of ways, one of which is that dreams are series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep. According to the books I've read when you dream, your spirit separates from your body. I don't know if it's true though. But what I believe is that dreams are products of our imagination. If we think too much of something or someone we'll end up dreaming about it. And usually our dreams are exaggerated, packed with unimaginable adventures and make believe fantasies. I even have my share of these fantasies when I dreamed about my dream boy (hehehe!) but unfortunately I can't see his face (again!) What happened in my dream??! That's for me to know and for you to wonder...(hehehe) So I'll settle to my ideas and opinions about dreams and maybe read a little more. (e.g. interpretations and meanings). I will not base my life through it but it will serve as a sign or prophecy of what will happen in the future. *wink*


P.S.
i watched herbie today w/
kuja,jc,mario and thyron..
it was cool..i didn't attend
my class...wahh..bad ko!
hehe..ano kaya ginawa
nla knina?! hehe yan ang
napapala ng mga
pasaway...hehehe

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