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Dreamer
By Tanya Faye O. Ramiro
YOU contributor
Philippine Daily Inquirer-YoungBlood


DAYS before our graduation, I was already feeling a deep void inside my stomach, not excitement over getting my diploma. Dread, not celebration, was what was consuming me. Aside from the year I went to our village pre-school which was actually more like a day-care center, I spent two years in Miriam Child Study Center, seven years in Miriam Grade School, four in Miriam High School and another four years in the Ateneo de Manila University. Almost my entire existence was devoted to school! I found myself utterly attached to being a student, and so it terrified me to know that that was going to change. After 17 long years of school, I didn't think I would be good at anything but being a student. How was I going to fare now that I was no longer a student but a graduate? That was the questions that was eating me up.

We all have our share of ambitions we want to pursue and dreams about the kind of life we want to live in the future. In my case, my aspirations were pure fantasy. Once, I envisioned myself as a Hollywood actress, making multimillion-dollar movies, wearing glamorous clothes, being chased by the paparazzi and adored by fans. Being an avid viewer of National Geographic and the Discovery Channel, I also imagined myself as a world-renowned Egyptologist exploring the ancient ruins of Egypt and excavating priceless treasures and tombs that will finally be revealed to the world through my own efforts. And there was also one time when I fancied being a freelance artist creating works of art valued at thousands of dollars and proudly displayed in the world's most prestigious ...... continue

*a piece of my reflection*

I came across this article while browsing pinoyexchange.com.. and it's a great essay so i took the time of posting it here..i'll be looking back to this article someday (when i graduate..) to somehow inspire me and give strength to face the real "world"..

way back in first year, when asked on why i chose IT as my course.. i would often answer "Because I love computers"..now I realize how lame my answer was..yes i love computers..the fun of it..the thrill of surfing the internet and the enjoyment of playing and chatting..but i didn't envisioned it as a career! I can't see myself as a programmer (sleeping late at night and deciphering conflict codes) in the future..i've thought of shifting last year but when i glimpsed at my prospectus all the "shifting-sentiments" vanished..i been through a lot of hell with these subjects (esp. the math subjects! w/c i've grown to hate since my trigonometry teacher gave me a flat 60 in prelims!) and shifting means trashing all those efforts and time..

however, i'm glad that i didn't pursue that idea..i'm beginning to see some positive points in my course now..it isn't programming alone..i have a lot of options and that's the advantage (there's web design,graphics and animations which is way more fun)..IT has a lot of fields and according to one of my teachers, you can't learn it all, you just have to know your expertise and focus on it..

i still despise programming though, but i can handle some more semesters..and who knows maybe there's still a chance for me to actually like it..hehe!

like the author i myself is a dreamer and i dream big (what's there to lose? its free anyway)..i anticipate the time where i can truly live my dreams..but meanwhile i'll focus my attention to what is in the present and do good in my studies 'coz it will be my ticket to success!