random update

[mood ]

[music stick with you by the pussycat dolls]

Blogging hasn't been my cup of tea lately..i've been busy with a lot of stuffs...school and all other extra curricular activities ( a profound way to describe my series of adventures for the past few weeks..hehe) going on lately..

i've stressed it on my last entry that last sem ended awfully.. i hope it will not happen again..it won't, i swear.. i already learned my lesson..

anyways, i'm not really that all excited about being back to school..i hate worrying about quizzes and exams..above all dealing with boring/dumb teachers..not much of an attitude huh.. but i need to get over this and do what's supposed to be done even if it means going to classes everyday and anticipating dismissal every god damn moment of it! i almost wish i have the guts to sleep in class (like someone i knew..hehe! peace out!).. makes me wonder why i even go to class at all! aha..i know..so that i can graduate and ..blah..blah..blah..blah.. end of discussion! we all know why we have to go to school right?

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my current lss

[current mood ]

[music goodbye by juana]

.....Didn't mean to hurt you badly

Don't think that I am fooling around with you

So sorry for the time you've wasted on me

So sorry for the things that you went through

But I know that the problem's within me

You're so nice but your love don't deserve me

Or maybe I'm just so scared to fall in love again

...I can still remember the days

So many times, I've been hurt

So much trust I put on a relationship

So much suffering I got and the pain still remain

Know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk

So confused and I don't know how to deal with it

Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

CHORUS

...Don't say goodbye

Don't say goodbye

I need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

...Don't say goodbye

Don't say goodbye

I need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

...Now, I know I wasn't thinking before

That's why I'm always ending up with Mr. Wrong

Learning from the past, don't wanna make a mistake

You could be Mr. Right or could be a fake

You know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk

So confused and I don't know how to deal with it

Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away...

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in the middle of a restless night

I'm supposed to do my Eng. 23 assignment...but I can't seem to find the exact words to composed a 10 sentence essay describing Mario..hehe..I don't know if the limit is too small or so..I'm afraid na malampas naman ako sa minimum like before..mahirap na if mgtodo-emote na na man ako..I was in my bed earlier struggling myself to sleep..but I can't...A lot of things are bothering me..and I remember all my assignments for Monday.that's why instead na magtanga lng ako don sa bed...ginawa ko na lng yon...but now that nka-on na ang PC wala namang ideas na pumasok..ngex! ano ba to?!

Something's bothering me and I need an outlet...I'm supoosed to text my friend but I ran out of load..hehe..so I guess i have no other choice...I went to a cardiologist today..my mom freak out when my grandma told her that I had fever again last monday...so she quickly take me to my doctor...and I don't have any choice but to skip class...The doctor advised me to have that test she'd been telling my mom last time I was there..so my mom agreed even if it cost her a lot.. A sort of test or something was done to me..I was nervous when I was in the laboratory..it's my first time to have a lab test i mean a really serious one...(aside from X-rays of course and those blood test thingy).. I always have x-rays every 2 years to monitor my lungs..yeah I had a weak system I know..I'm already like this since I was a child..so nothing's new..back to that heart test again..Its really amazing I can see my heart through a monitor..I can even hear my heart beat...they put some wirings in my body..think that was 4 all in all..those wires are connected in a machine...the doctor hold a laser-like-thing...he was pushing it into my chest and my heart can be seen from the monitor...he keeps on saying some things but I can't really understand him.. duh! its all medical terms..so I just concentrates on watching my heart visible in the monitor...It made me realized the advancement of technology in the medical field and I'm glad I experience it..but I'm not really glad of the possibility that I'm having any heart ailment..it scares me to death... the results will be available next week..i do pray that it will be ok..hahay..

I'm still up coz i can't sleep..wala na namn akong mgawang matino so this entry is getting longer every minute..hehe...i hate to stay up this late but I just can't sleep...when i'm in bed..I kept on staring at the ceiling...the bedsheets are crampled and all but still I'm awake ..hay...i'm tired but i can't sleep...this is so frustrating...huhuhu...what will I do...para na akong tanga dito bah...cge type ng non-sense thoughts...hahaha..! it's almost two o'clock OMG! i guess i really had to go to bed even though i can't sleep..maybe i'll just close my eyes and pray that eventually i can go to sleep...

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