a recap

[ mood | | cheerful ]

[ music | always love by nada surf]

"Live each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit and resign yourself to the influences of each."

-Henry David Thoueau

Since I haven't been blogging for the longest time ever (6 months hiatus!), I decided to write an entry to somehow recollect everything that had happen over the past months. I'm not gonna do a detailed story, but more like a recap. I kinda lost my appetite on blogging for a while. I had my reasons and well, I've been pretty busy. Anyhow, I'm back now. I'll probably be updating this blog more often from now on.

June started with Badjoy and Mario's Birthday bash. IT '07 went to Tagum and Gensan! Fun fun fun! I wasn't able to join them in Tagum due to some unforeseen circumstances but I went to Gensan. We stayed in Tropicana Beach Resort. The highlight of the event was ... *drum rolls* the hubog moments! Who would forget Leri's demonic shirt that bring forth unexpected behaviors? Such us ahmm setting one's hair on fire! (haha! winner!) And of course the scandalous crime of ripping JC's pajamas. Which by the way remains a mystery up to now. There are suspects but no sufficient evidence will prove him/her guilty! (hehe). I also had my moments that I'd rather not say for I can no longer recall most of them! We all had our first times right? As for me, It was the first time I got drunk!

After our two day adventure in Gensan, we went to Leri's Farm in Toril. It was Antonio's Birthday (we call our friends' parents by their first name). The place was really beautiful. If we stayed longer it would really be nice to hike and explore the place. We made a bonfire and drunk the famous IT '07 drink- Tagaka. We owe it to Leri's aunt who patiently taught us the right mix. This time around I had my first taste of that swaying while walking kind of thing. Then my vision was ahmm delayedslashblurred. haha On top of that I can't seem to control my self from talking nonsense. I guess the spirit of alcohol made my tongue real slippery. I became so outspoken thus leads to the creation of "theories why people drink". lol *_* As much as I would like to forget that unfortunate event, it's next to impossible for there's a hard cold evidence. haha! As if "parrot-ing" the incident wasn't enough noh! Oh well, at least now I know my limitation when it comes to drinking. *wink*

By the middle of the month, we were slowly moving on from the aftermath brought by SAD. Some gaps remained unbridge but as they say, "time heal all wounds". Its simpler to let things cool down rather than forcing something that is not possible. On the 15th, IT conquered Bigby's for Kristel's 20th Birthday celeb. The scariest experienced in the history of our outings happened that night at Times Beach! Some bastards threw stones at our cottage. Thank God, nobody got hurt. The boys almost caught a fight over the incident. As usual, some silly drunken stuff happened but I'm in no position to spill it out so lets leave it to those who were there. Anyway, the gathering that concluded the month was Lele's thanksgiving party or "the patay party" . Patay party indeed 'coz majority of us were knock out in the morning!

July was a busy month. Thesis eats up pretty much of our time. But the end of the month was a grand celebration (no class for 3 days + weekends) for we were able to rest from schoolworks and unwind a little. There's the Kikay Night @ Mae Anne's House, Kikoy Day @ Samal and lastly Eden Part II. Yes I know, we actually have this habit of naming and documenting our outings.

August is a happy month for me. Most school activities were squeezed within the month so it only means one thing- no class! Well, things like that can make a simple person like me happy. hehe... Addition to the overflowing scheds was our Retreat. It was not that memorable for me. Maybe the fact that we fall to the same retreat house and facilitator as last year eliminated all the possible thrill. Unlikely things such as that "letter thingy" are bound to happen. I don't know. Probably the plan materialize out of boredom. No offense but that was really immature. The little bits of fun happened off the session in the girls quarter. (dba girls?)

Intrams was ok. The same old-ateneo-intrams, crowded and still fighting over the few seats in the covered court. No change at all except for the increase of complains among the students. I'm just so glad that the CS Booth garnered the most profit. Our efforts were rewarded! Yay I almost forgot our Theology Immersion in Sirawan, Toril. I've learn a lot on that one. My perspective towards the Muslims entirely changed. I'm not gonna go deep on that right now, some other time maybe. (nahurot na sulat sa reflection notebook tanan idea nko!)

September! It's not just the beginning of Christmas season but also the premiere of all the TV series I'm watching. I hate to admit that some of them actually disappointed me. Lost, The O.C. and Veronica Mars- they're not as interesting as the previous seasons. I'm still watching it though, there are still room for improvements or a twist maybe. It's too early to lay judgments. On the other hand, graduation dilemmas begun to flood us. There were photo shoots to attend and applications to fill-up. No matter how jam packed the calendar is, we always find time to party. Teptep's 20th Birthday was celebrated at Eden Nature Park. Finally, I was able to join them. I was not able to attend the two previous Eden outings. Naturally it was named Eden Part III! hehe...


October smells like sheets of photocopies and pages of books. Indications that the final exam is coming. I wonder why I usually turned lazy on the last term. Not that I'm not lazy during prelim and midterm...lol(I am always lazy! cgro mas mutamad jd sa finals samot!). Is it just me or most students feel that way too? hmm... Every corner of Ateneo scream the words- "thank you for being honest", "don't cheat", "please be honest in your exams". I just have to mention this you know...'Coz it really caught my attention (sensitive issue!). I heard its part of OSA's campaign against cheating which is a severe case in the university. I hope those friendly reminders on the bulletins were enough warning for the students. Expulsion is not that appealing.

Our thesis defense made us nervous and edgy more than anything else. It will be our last obstacle before we graduate. So far, it goes well. All our proposals were accepted. The most challenging subject for me last sem was Philosophy. It brought out the skeptic in me and later on I gained a broader understanding on my faith in God.

Even before exam week my excitement on our Educational Trip in Cebu is already bursting. Thinking of all the preparations not to mention the shopping we've done made me laugh now. It was like the majorest trip of all , if there is such a word. Cebu is a really great place. The high rise buildings, the companies and the bars were magnificent. Its really an ideal place to live plus the tons of job opportunities for IT professionals (sounds so ehem formal...I'm having a hard time picturing myself as one..haha). I will always love Davao of course, in fact I can see myself growing old in here. But for the meantime Cebu seems to be the best place to start a career. By the way, I also met my cousin for the first time. I've been wanting to met her ever since so it made my trip extra special. After staying in Cebu for almost four days we went straight to Camiguin. I had the time of my life. The pictures would testify the outcome of the trip.

November start off with JC's surprise birthday party. I was gone for 3 days to attend the National Youth Day. A week after was Kuja and Leri's party at Isla Reta. Through all these, one thing had changed- my color! hehe... I've been exposed on too much sun. Good thing I didn't had sunburn.

December blast! Kuja, Tep, Badj, Benjie and I went to Bamboo's Concert on the 2nd. And I must say that it was the best concert ever. I totally salute the band for being so great on stage. Bamboo makes me high! haha If my mom had seen me jumping and screaming the way I did, she'll probably think that I'm on some sort of drug. lol The last major party I attended before I went home was the IT '07 Xmas Party. I had a great time. Thank you for the people who work hard to make the party a success.

After Christmas, Thea organized a get together party exclusive for our clique. We are like a sorority minus the rules and formalities. hehe...I treat them as my sisters. We stick together through all the problems and controversies over the years. It's been 5 wonderful years of friendship and more to go. I've never seen some of them for months. I'm just so glad that we were able to catch up on each other lives again! ^_^

2006 was a fun filled year for me. I want to thank everyone who made me smile, laugh, sad, angry and cry. Those emotions made me real so I'm grateful to you for making me feel alive. For those people I've hurt or offend I'm truly sorry.

Let's leave all bad energies behind and face the new year in a clean slate. Advance Happy New Year!

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National Youth Day '06

[ mood | |happee]

[ music | in my place by coldplay ]

"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path"
Psalm 119:105

It's been exactly one month since the National Youth Day! The thought of those memorable days still makes me nostalgic. The experience was really overwhelming I can't even grasp the whole thing and put it into words. That's why when someone asks me how was it I don't know exactly what to say. Attending the NYD change a few of my perspective in life. The whole event was a wonderful learning process. You will meet people from different walks of life. All you need is just an open smile and you'll be surprise where it can lead you. No matter how diverse we are in terms of personality, family background and culture there is always a common ground. In this case it is God. We were all united to praise and glorify Him.

I tried to wrap everything in this entry. It took me a while to finish the whole thing so I hope you will have fun reading and somehow learn from it.

For me, joining the NYD was like going to battle without an armor. I totally have no idea what I've gotten into. My friend Thea just drag me in without actually providing much details. Just the assurance that it will be fun and I'll be excuse in class for three days. :) Well, I'm entitled to disagree actually but I don't know, I just said yes for no apparent reason. I have so much on my mind that time, I'd rather agree with her than have an endless debate. I did not register personally so I'm clueless of all the essential information. My first day didn't went well as planned because of a the simple negligence of not knowing.

(Day 1) The Disastrous First Day

I woke up really early. I'm not yet through packing all my stuff and the call time is 8am. Unfortunately, preparation consumed all my time so I didn't eat a heavy breakfast.I just grabbed some bread and a glass of milk. Little did I know that those will be the only food sustaining my body for the rest of the day.

We arrived at Ateneo High School Campus at exactly 8:30 sporting our big maletas. By the way, I'm with my three friends- Thea, Dece and Rarai. The other delegates (Digos Delegates) were still on their way to Davao so we stayed at MTS to wait for them. Waiting...waiting..still waiting...it seems to on forever. (nalosyang na lng among beauty didto wa lng gihapoy delegates nangabot!) Five hours had passed and still there were no signs from them. We look like lonesome travelers abandon by the world. I was beginning to think that my karma has just arrived. You see, I told my classmates before I left that my sole purpose in going to NYD was "boy hunting". (lol..one step ahead ang gaba! paspas kaayo!) Maybe the whole waiting dilemma was just a wake up call. A reminder for me to rethink my purpose, say perhaps spiritual enrichment. How does that sound? (hehe)

When our hope was just about to sink, a convoy of four buses passed. Finally! We quickly went across the street. The buses stopped in front of Ateneo to wait for us but it appears that they were causing a traffic jam. So before we even successfully cross the damn street, they already left. Haay! (Naa pa ba may mas malas anang mabiyaan ka sa bus na gihulat nmo og almost 5 hours?!) Left with no choice, we stayed near the gate depressed and looking like idiots. (take note! ngdala2x mig maleta! ang saya!) A bunch of kindergartens were staring at as strangely but we were not in the mood to go cute and cuddly with them. Their adorable faces were not enough to cheer us up. Then here comes this traffic aide asking "Nabiyaan mo dai, asa pa diay mo gkan gnina ra mn mong alas osto dri?" (ay jus ko! obyus mn cgro sa among nawong noh? wa na lng mi ng-ingon na tga davao ra mi ky mas mu-ulaw ng samot.) We stood there for like 30 minutes trying to call Bro. Joe (our delegation head) but he's not answering his phone. I saw some delegates entering inside, since we don't have an ID yet we just hang in there a little more. Another 30 minutes passed, the embarrassment and heat became too much to bear so I approached the guard and asked if we could enter without an ID. Guess what?! He just said, "Sure, where are your bags? Let me check it first". (di englishero ang guard ha!haha feel lng nko xa itranslate gd for the benifit of those who don't understand the dialect! Og sa dihang pirti pa namong pa init2x og hulat noh! Pwede dy musulod!)

We entered Ateneo at exactly 1 o'clock sweaty and hungry! To our surprise Bro. Joe was inside with the 300 something delegates. (Nituyok lng diay cla og sa pikas gate ni-agi! toink! malay ba nmo noh) There were a lot of delegates fighting for Bro. Joe's attention (he was segregating all the delegates to the different parishes) so we didn't add to the growing tension. All along we thought that the four of us will have the same foster family so we assigned who will bring the toiletries and stuff. To our horror we were separated! (kana laging mgtinamad! ngpagamayay pa jd og bag.. dah tagam!) Three of the four buses already left. That's when we started to be alarmed! What if our name were already called? (tsktsk ma-award mn jd mi ani bah!) We were all hesitant to ask Bro. Joe because he seems busy and pissed off. (sa among pagtanga2x didto sa kilid naligsan na lng noun ang bag ni thea sa bus!ngtan-aw lng sd mi..dugay kaau ang reaction time.. mau na lng wlay ndamage sa iyang gamit! pero nilakra pd lge ang ligid sa bus sa iyang bag!haha) After a minute or so, Thea and Dece's name were called. They were assigned in the same parish. Waahh!! What about us? (oh no!) That leaves Rarai and me, unfortunately her bus already left. Instead of feeling sad, we were glad because Bro. Joe transferred her to our parish. By the way, the toiletries were separated equally in case you're wondering! (naa btaw convinience every kanto so chox lng! ulaw lng ky gi-abri jd nmo ang mga maleta infront of the madlang pipol...hehe!)

So we get on the bus and went to our different destinations. I don't know what the heck happened but there were only 3 of us assigned in San Lorenzo Parish in Talomo- me, Rarai and Jammy( a sixteen year old girl from Malita), the rest were about 10-15 in every parish. They even have group leaders which were given instructions on what to do. So I started to wonder. Maybe there's some kind of mistake here. (Ngano tulo ra mi? Dw beh knsa mn himuon nmong lider2x nga pare-pareho mn mi wlay alam! Fatay na! Di mn gni mi kamao aha among parish dapit!) We were the last group to be drop off, the driver was already asking us the direction. But how on earth will we know? When we finally locate the parish it was already 3 o' clock! I haven't eaten anything since breakfast! The minute we arrive my stomach began to growl. (Kakuyapon na gd ko sa kgutom ay chuper! Lechon na panan-aw nko sa mga ng-welcome sa amoa didto!) Some volunteers offered to bring our bags and guided us to the receiving area. The first thing they asked from us was our Official NYD ID which was not given by our delegation head. That's where the problem originated. They can't give us our NYD kit (the bag, journal and etc.) if we don't have an ID so we were not entertained. We were like lost sheep in a flock. (mura mig mga outsider didto, way id, way kaila, way kaon, wa tanan!) I almost gave up, you know. Why would I suffer to be there, when my house is just a cab away? I can easily go back, anyway I haven't invested anything yet except for wasted energy. But when I entered the church and saw the faces of the delegates from all over Philippines. Whew! I realized that I can't just gave it up. What happened was meant to be. Whatever the underlying reasons, I don't care anymore. Even with an empty stomach I was already excited. I just stopped worrying and leave it up to Him. We met some fellow Digos delegates who helped us get through the registration. They were all very kind and helpful. Later after the mass I met my foster mother-Nanay Cora. She's the best foster mother ever! ( Ang gi-question dayon ky gi-gutom na ba dw mi! O dba winner ky psychic kaau!) Supposedly she'll just be accommodating two delegates but I beg her to take Rarai because she was not registered in that parish and she agreed instantly. ( kitam! d best jd!) My other foster sisters were Ate Weng (from Diocese of Digos also) and of course Jen (Nanay Cora's daughter). (Ngkasinabot jd mi tanan! First thing na gbuhat nmo pg-abot sa ilang balay ky ngkaon! hehe)We stayed at Ulha Village in Ulas, a very nice neighborhood. (But-an kaau ang mga tao pramis!)

Though my first day was a total disaster still I had fun. At the end of the day we had a good laugh at all the misfortunes that we experienced. :)

(Day 2) The Boat Is Sinking!

"The boat is sinking! Group yourselves into 10!". That was the cue, the next thing I knew all 3000 plus delegates in Catechetical Site 3 were roaming around the huge sports complex of Ateneo looking for group mates. I landed in Group Number 188! The best group in the whole wide universe! (haha!) If not for them NYD wouldn't be that fun at all. The language barrier didn't stop us from sharing our thoughts and feelings in the group. Personally, I was very comfortable sharing my opinion to them because they're all open minded. (bhala mgkabuang na og tagalog hala storya jpun! lol!) You can easily blend in the crowd. It's really amazing to see all this people united in one purpose- God!

The Facilitators:

Carlo (Davao)
Kuya Philip (Dipolog)

The Group:

Gen (Tagum)
Jea (Tagum)
Ken (Novaliches)
Ate Liway (Pangasinan)
Marc (Iligan)
Merlyn (Matti)
Kuya Otep (Pangasinan)
Rarai (Davao)
Shine (Matti)-

What we did in the morning was just basically faith sharing and some journal works. The Holy Eucharist presided by the Papal Nuncio followed later in the afternoon. His homily was quite inspiring. The Youth Festival in the evening made my eyes beamed with gladness! It was like being able to witness the different festivities of the Philippines. (So bongga! with all the costumes and everything jd! Murag kag ngtan-aw og sinulog or kadayawan!) The performance of each diocese represents some kind of cultural inclination. Too bad I was not able to finish the show. :(

(Day 3) Making Choices

I don't have much to say about what happened this day but what struck me most was the talk of Atty. Robert Quintain. He was a very good speaker. One moment you're laughing the next thing you know tears were already falling in your eyes. He had various stories but this one made me cry...

Bobby was in Grade 1 when he delivered the first speech of his life . His English teacher Ma'am Abby was the one who taught him everything, from the speech itself to the proper way of delivering it. The speech will be presented in their Teacher's Day celebration. They practiced almost everyday. Then here comes the big day! He was all set and ready. But when he arrived at school he was faced with the terrible news that his beloved teacher was killed the night before. Though he was at the verge of sorrow he still carry on with the speech. Everyone was applauding and admiring him after but he didn't noticed any of them. He just cried endlessly at the stage. A teacher approached and asked him why he was crying then he replied, "All of these are nothing if Ma'am Abby is not here".

It will really break your heart hearing that statement from a 7 year old boy who had just experienced his first taste of pain and loss. *sigh* The session was extra heavy that day because it started with deep reflections.

We went home early to our designated parishes for the holy hour. After the confession nghause party kmi...hehe! We bought food and share it to the family, then later on we tour the village and visit the other neighboring delegates. (nalingaw jd mig maayo!) The delegates from Tagum were really fun to be with. (Mga tabian kayo cla and mga joker!) For someone like me permanence is the hardest thing to establish so I'm not really used to being active in anything in my own community. I witnessed the true essence of being in a community there and I'm actually participating. It felt like I'm in a different world. (Murag nsa davao lng ko na murag wala...wierd!)

(Day 4) The Pilgrim Walk

I am so proud of myself. I successfully walked shrine under the heat of the freakin' sun! Woohoo! (dli jd xa sayon! super kapoi...lami kaau mgpaligid na lng pababa tong ngstart na ang pasaka! init, kapoi, uhaw, abog name it present na tanan wa nkay mawish!) The heat was really unbearable but knowing that everyone experiences the same suffering keeps you motivated. If kaya nila, kaya ko rin! We just talk and laugh and laugh some more to ease the feeling of weariness. Good thing my group mates keeps on cracking some jokes. And the boys offered to bring the girls' bag. (how sweet! gentlemen kau cla...) We all stayed together util we reached shrine. By the way, thank you for the free mineral waters along the way! That really helped a lot! (ky jusko! ang tubig nko nahmo nag hot water dahil sa ka-init! pwede na timplahan og coffee..haha)

Shrine was divided into three areas alloted for the respective catechetical sites and a big stadium was at the center. Wow! 7000 youths! How often does this happen? Though I'm very exhausted the overwhelming sight made me want to jump and shout! What matters is that moment! And the fact that YOU are actually THERE!

The youth jam was a blast! Everybody was dancing, singing and jumping. I was having the moment of my life. Even if the instruction was to stay at the designated Parish area our group stayed together! That was the last moment that we will be together. Kuya Otep initiated a group hug and almost everybody cried! I didn't realize that these people who were just plain strangers days ago will occupy such a big space in my heart. It was pretty hard to let go. The pain of goodbye. Its a part of life that all of us must deal with. I'm just grateful that I met them in this lifetime. Who knows? Our path will cross again someday.. :) See you then!

Thank you to everyone who made National Youth Day 2006 so memorable! ^_^

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history dilemma

[ mood | happy ]

[ music | history is falling for science by tdaa ]

WARNING! a random nonsense post coming up

...this blog had been put aside again due to some more important stuffs..such as well, school..hay..summer class is one hell of a bitch! (harsh words that is) history is putting a ton of pressures on me..i used to love it since gradeschool..promise! i even dream of becoming a historian way back then..lol!

...it's still my favorite subject now but..i don't know..maybe its the teacher factor..he's making a big deal out of it...assuming that we will prioritized the subject like it's our major.. duh! he keeps on threatening us..kesyo he'll flunk us if we take his subject for granted..blah blah blah "don't be dreaming" (his favorite line)..yeah we will surely not do that coz i don't think a 5 chapter (120 + pages) midterm exam will allow that little leisure called "dreaming" to happen..

...i'm sick of reading the book..remembering those f***in' names, places and dates..

...anyways, music is my solace..my music preference is evolving day by day..and i'm loving it! i've discovered a lot of great bands..both foreign and local..i'll eloborate more on this next time..coz it that i'm running out of time again..it's getting late and my bf (a.k.a my history book) is waiting for me..

..another sleepless night

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quote

[ mood | ]

[ music | you're so damn hot by ok go ]

"Things don't have to be extraordinary to be beautiful, even the ordinary can be beautiful"

-from the movie Wicker Park

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feelin pathetic

[ mood | ]

[ music | amber pacific album on playlist! ^_^ ]

Poetically Pathetic

by Amber Pacific

Thinking of the words to say,
I'd like to think that this was fate.
Reference to a song you love,
Spell confusion with a 'k'.
Like a star without its strings,
I'm hanging here on these two wings.
For that smile and those eyes...(I'm falling)

If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic?
When there's nothing more pathetic to be said...

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside.
You carry through, you make me smile.
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you,
For you...

If you ever had the chance,
Would you make your life seem right?
Or would you only hold it back,
The good times, the hard, and the bad.
Whatever you say is alright,
Just as long as there's no doubt.
Could you look me in the eyes...(And say hopes died)

If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic?
When there's nothing more pathetic to be said...

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside.
You carry through, you make me smile.
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you.

Our wish,
Each time,
Keeps me returning to you,
Night after night...
Lift me up as high as the clouds that warm the sky,
For you and I...

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside.
You carry through, you make me smile,
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you...

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside...
You carry through, you make me smile,
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you,
For you...

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time alone

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[ music | insomnia by electric president ]



this is the first time i spend holy week away from my family..i was debating with myself last wednesday if i'd go home or not..but i let the weather decide..if it rains around 5 o'clock, i'll stay here then vice versa..and guess what?! it rained..well, so much for signs i don't believe them anyway..i've already made a decision..i just did that to justify my choice..well luckily the weather was on my side..

here i am now..alone (not literally) and missing home..i welcome the feeling of longing but didn't regret staying..i finally have some time for my self..and its a good thing..i think i need a break from everything that's going on with my life..a time-out if its possible..to do some thinking..recharge my energy..reflect..

i need a little more time before going back to the real world...

responsibilty
school
stress

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oth & oc

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[ music | such great hieghts by the postal service ]

i was finally able to watch the o.c...yey! i was stucked in episode 13 for like a month coz i can't find any working torrent source..lame excuse ( i know! ) ..i didn't exert effort to actually find it..i got bored with oc's predictable episodes..still love the characters though (the reason i still hang on to it) and the music of course..i take note of every interesting songs played in each episode..hehe! not much of an addict eh?? not yet at that...haha!

i'm totally hooked with one tree hill! i dunno if others will agree..but for me it really is a tearjerker..if i'm not laughing my ass off (w/c will eventually cause tears), i'm emotionally drain after each episode..(nyahaha..exag!) but i did shed a lot of tears for the past 2 seasons...the latest was not an exception..there were episodes with heavy drama coz death was one major highlight aside from the usual teenage dilemma.. it's their best season ever..waiting for the next episode is almost a torture..i can go on and on writing about oth..there's just so much to write about..like chad, chad and chad..who has the most adorable eyes in the whole wide world..lol! *kilig mode*

the season is about to end, oc has 25 episodes (5 more to go) while oth has 21 (if my source is accurate)..i'm excited! wohooo...anyway, gotta go..just drop by here to update this piece of a thing that i called blog..i'll watch some movies that had been piling up in my hd (hard disk) for the longest time dated! ciao!

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artix

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[ music | hide and seek by imogen heap ]

nice artiks from peyups:

In The Middle Of All These
Contributed by habibi (Edited by amplifier)
Monday, April 10, 2006 @ 12:00:00 AM

I am not one to fool myself and make believe that there will be a happy ending for us. I couldn't fault you for laying it down to me plain & simple that we can never be more than what we are right now. Ok, so you felt the same way. Period. Who am I to expect that you also want to bring this, whatever this is, to the next level anyway?

Although I could've loved you more, I know now that you're not the right one for me. more

Fate Rubs it In
Contributed by tagapeyups (Edited by amplifier)
Sunday, March 19, 2006 @ 01:34:33 PM

While savoring a cup of brewed coffee and munching on my favorite ham and cheese croissant, I happened by an entire section of the Inquirer on no less than Summer Loving. Stories of love discovered serendipitously, of strangers who found each other and eventually tied the knot. These people didn't look for love...it found them. more

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casanova

[ mood | crazy ]

[ music soul meets body by deathcab for cutie ]

"Oh give me a man who is man enough to give himself just to the woman who is worth him. If that woman were me I would love him alone and forever. "


by Francesca Bruni
(from the movie Casanova)

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good morning

[ mood | ecstatic ]

[ music | one good day coming up by barbie almalbis ]

i woke up this morning feeling light and happy..

i must say this is one of those mornings wherein i'm glad to welcome a new day! hay.. i miss this! i rarely wake up early.. i don't have the leisure to take a long refreshing bath, to eat breakfast or to appreciate sunrise coz i'm often running late for school.. *yawn* i'm not gonna go back to bed i swear..haha! i just need a lil stretch..

there are a lot of reasons to be happy if you will just recognize it amidst the clouds of confusion.. today i will acknowledge them whole heartedly..i thank God for all the blessings He had given me even though i fail to notice them sometimes..oh well, i just can't help it..i'm such a worrier! i tend to highlight details that are not supposed to be notice..i'm working my way out of that habit now..i guess i'm finally learning..=)

it's nice to be aware of the good things you have than to fuss over to those you can't have..believe me, having this kind of mindset helps a lot.. it's far from having total contentment but it pushes you to accept things that are not meant to be..

life is beautiful and it is too short to be spent on worrying..let the problem problem itself..haha (i wonder where i heard that line)..my optimism is at its highest..whatever happens to my day i hope i will carry this smile -- > (^_^) at the end of it.

a pleasant morning to all!


[written on: March 21 @ 5:00 am]

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live like there's no tomorrow

[ mood | ]

[ music | our lives by the calling ]

it's finals already! the school year is about to end yet misfortunes continue to flood us.. what happened today culminates the perfect end to a school year bombarded with pretty much the same events..(yeah ryt) i'm beginning to see the pattern now..in just a span of 6 months we manage to project an image opposite to who we really are.. i think we've had enough you know..please cut these chains of unfortunate incidents..we are just a bunch of individuals who wants nothing but pure fun..(aside from passing and graduating..hehe!) i just hope we will get through all these.. *cross fingers*

to sum it up, this year or sem has been a blast! (minus those not-so-happy-days of course) all the laags, chismis, noms2x, sad-ing, luvteam2x, beach2x, picture2x, on's and everything! super duper ka-enjoy! =) i owe all these fun to the it3 peeps! thanks guys..hay..one year to go (if God permits! hehe) and we're off to our own separate lives...cge lng dghan btaw ta pix and videos! (pki-connect!) nyahaha..magsenti bah! anyway, i'm just thankful ky maski na-stuck ko sa course na dli ko happy at least naay consolation coz i have with me great persons (with the same dilemma if i'm not mistaken..hehe) who make me smile and laugh (til i drop!).. i just hope i will have the chance to get to know each and everyone before we bid our goodbyes! and of course looking forward for more outings, laag2x and the likes! =) i'm not even sure if these memories will make me cry or laugh 10 years from now..haha..i guess both!


to myself:

i'm gonna set all worries aside..laugh it off..blew it to the wind and make the best out of everyday! =p nyahaha..i'm not gonna say goodbye to teenage life with bitterness and regrets! ^_^ things happen for a reason! so i'll leave it to the One above!

See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptyness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?

'Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside

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life is what you make it

[ mood | ]

[ music |Barenaked by Jenifer Love Hewitt ]

i officially welcome myself back to the blogging world..this blog has been on hiatus for like 2 or 3 months already so i'm updating...

oh well, what's up with my life?? honestly...I DON'T KNOW..it's been like a whirlwind..time really do fly fast when you're having fun...yeah speaking of fun..that's what i've been doing for the past months..i've been so caught up with it that even a simple task like updating my blog seems impossible..

there were a lot of changes... people, relationships, situations.. hell! almost everything changed! you can never tell..the next morning you will wake up in an entirely different world..

as they say, change is constant..so all you have to do is cope up with it..go with the flow..i'm pretty good at that..coz that's what i've been doing all my life..
it makes me wonder if i myself is changing and growing for the better..maybe, i did grow mature but not mature enough..i never learned! i'm still this hard-headed rebel who screams for independence.. i always do what i think is RIGHT, which is actually ok unless people think otherwise.. =( living my life according to other's perspective is what i'm trying to avoid..but its next to impossible..i welcome criticism..but stupid rumors are way too much..now i know how it feels..it sucks!

i just want to live my life.. savor every second of it.. is that so hard to understand?! i bet it is.. hay..thinking of this makes my head spin..i don't want to go on ranting anymore..i just want to move on..people will always be there to judge..but as long as i'm not doing anything i don't give a damn! my life is my business so don't waste your time making it yours!


there finally..this is not supposed to be the update that i'm gonna write but my mind leads me to this..might as well get this over with..

When I feel barenaked and I just can't take it
I'm getting jaded no I just can't take it anymore
Coz I'm barenaked and I know
Life's what you make it
Wish I could float away to some other day

It's all a state of mind
But I don't mind
Trying to find a way to keep my head above the mess I make
What the world creates
Sometimes it feels so good to let it all fall as we will fall
I may fall, we all fall
And then the world comes tumbling down

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somebody shake me

[moods | ]

[music | so far away by staid]

so far away
by staind

this is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings i've shared
and these are my dreams
that i'd never lived before
somebody shake me
cuz i
i must be sleeping

[chorus]
now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashambed to be the person that i am today

these are my words
that i've never said before
i think i'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that i've never shown before

somebody shake me cuz i
i must be sleeping

[chorus]
i'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please don't shake me

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una by spongecola

[mood | ]

[music | una by spongecola]

Una
by Spongecola

muli namang umihip sa akin
ang hangin ng pagiisa
liwanag kang dagling sumilaw
sa aking mga mata

linilingon, sinusundan
dumadalas ang minsan
ika'y naryan, abot tanaw
kahit walang dahilan

maiiwasan ba
ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko
(maiiwasan bang)
ngayo'y lilipas ng hindi kita nasisilayan
(magkamali sa'yo)
nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
(maiiwasan bang)
lalong mahulog sa iyo

walang maitutulad sa sumpang iyong linikha
putulin man ang tali ay sadyang walang kawala

sa pagkaakit, at di paglapit
nananalangin, at umaasang

maiiwasan ba
ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko
(maiiwasan bang)
ngayo'y lilipas ng hindi kita nasisilayan
(magkamali sa'yo)
nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
(maiiwasan bang)
lalong mahulog sa iyo

hindi padadala
hinding hindi padadala
hindi padadala

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