life is what you make it

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[ music |Barenaked by Jenifer Love Hewitt ]

i officially welcome myself back to the blogging world..this blog has been on hiatus for like 2 or 3 months already so i'm updating...

oh well, what's up with my life?? honestly...I DON'T KNOW..it's been like a whirlwind..time really do fly fast when you're having fun...yeah speaking of fun..that's what i've been doing for the past months..i've been so caught up with it that even a simple task like updating my blog seems impossible..

there were a lot of changes... people, relationships, situations.. hell! almost everything changed! you can never tell..the next morning you will wake up in an entirely different world..

as they say, change is constant..so all you have to do is cope up with it..go with the flow..i'm pretty good at that..coz that's what i've been doing all my life..
it makes me wonder if i myself is changing and growing for the better..maybe, i did grow mature but not mature enough..i never learned! i'm still this hard-headed rebel who screams for independence.. i always do what i think is RIGHT, which is actually ok unless people think otherwise.. =( living my life according to other's perspective is what i'm trying to avoid..but its next to impossible..i welcome criticism..but stupid rumors are way too much..now i know how it feels..it sucks!

i just want to live my life.. savor every second of it.. is that so hard to understand?! i bet it is.. hay..thinking of this makes my head spin..i don't want to go on ranting anymore..i just want to move on..people will always be there to judge..but as long as i'm not doing anything i don't give a damn! my life is my business so don't waste your time making it yours!


there finally..this is not supposed to be the update that i'm gonna write but my mind leads me to this..might as well get this over with..

When I feel barenaked and I just can't take it
I'm getting jaded no I just can't take it anymore
Coz I'm barenaked and I know
Life's what you make it
Wish I could float away to some other day

It's all a state of mind
But I don't mind
Trying to find a way to keep my head above the mess I make
What the world creates
Sometimes it feels so good to let it all fall as we will fall
I may fall, we all fall
And then the world comes tumbling down