Jan 15, 2007

Storya og Kinabuhi


Ngano complicated man ang life noh?

...ngfoodcourt mi kanina after sa data security na class...ako nglunch (ky wa pa man koi kaon) , c teptep and mae ann ky ng milo...milo-ers kaayo ni clang duha ay...ana pa si teptep na lami daw kaayo ang milo sa foodcourt...hehehe tas c marci nisabay pd, wla mn cya nikaon, bka busog lng cya...tama ang boys ky naa diay sa kilid (sa other table)...busy mn to clag storya...wla ko kbalo unsa topic nla...ngstorya na lng sd mig amoa...wla lng gd, wla may special pero rare na man gd namo mabuhat krn ng mg storya-storya lng...busy naman ang life! graduating mn gd daw...

...dghan mig topic! katong mga na food poison sa ASEAN summit sa Cebu...100+ bya to tanan daw, louy kaayo...pero mas louy ang image sa Pinas..ky sa tanan-tanan nilang prepare against sa mga possible bomb threat, terrorist attack og weather interruption, food poisoning ra diay kahinatnan...sa lechon og pancit pa jd cla nadaot! tsktsk...nkita mn nko to sa news last night murag wla mn ko care usually pero nitan-aw lng gd ko...

...so kato nausab na pd topic namo..naabot sa future...kalimot ko ngano naabot didto oie...sa una ky murag layo pamn kaau tong future sa vocabulary namo...krn doul na lng kaayo si "real world"... kataw-anan jd mi bah...kung kbalo lng lagi ni among parents unsa mi ka problemado sa among future career...mashock-shock jd cgro akong maderaka...pirte na biya nilang expect, mao man jd ng role sa parents- mg assumed-assumed. wa tay mabuhat kung madisappoint cla, wla btaw nato cla sugua nga mgexpect...kani laging skwela-skwela og IT human dli gusto mgprogrammer...toink! ingon pa ni mae ann mg-unsa na lng daw mi...good question meh...wla jd bya kaayo mi ngtake og mga exam sa mga company...programmers mn gd mostly gnapangita...nakora na mi atong software alliance intawon...feeling gd nko na bulok kaayo ko after sa exam...ingon pa ni teptep na maski simple math problem daw dli na cya kasolve..nah..unsa na lng jd ko na expert pd kaayo sa math with a degree to prove! (phd!) pagkapait bah oi! sauna katong 3rd year...lipay-lipay pa...dali ra kaayo ingnon na "ah layo pa btaw na oie!"... pero krn wla nay mu-dare ingon ana...ayus unta mu-graduate, hadlok lng!




:food court scenes:


...niabot dayon c jc, nachange among topic sa mga call centers...nkakita kog light gamay...ingon niya naa daw cya friend sa people support...human ngapangita daw og mga technical staff agents ilang company...ang question ky dapat super english-er bah jd ka bago mkasulod sa ana na job...dli man sd cgro noh...ky itrain pa mn ka...dli mn kaayo ta tantong bala cgro mg-eningols noh? ana pa c mae ann na unsaon na lng kung parehas ky jc ang customer! hahaha (rewind ang awarding moment ni jc) patience na lng jd cgro dpat ipuhunan...according to teptep naa sa telephone ra btaw daw ng kastorya nmo...tama jd! so if lagot na kaayo ka pwede na nmo dilaan or pikatan imong customer! dli btaw na kita sa imo...hahaha!

...human ngtransport na sd mig topic! naabot ky kc concepcion. perfect kaayo cyag life noh...gwapa,bright,rich then humble pa jd. naa pa kaya nay problemahon ng ana na tao? tama naa diay, ingon niya sa multiply nya dli daw cya mkapamalengke dri sa pilipinas! mao lng cgro na ang downside sa sikat...dli ka pwede mglaroy-laroy sa public place... wla jd diay perfect life! pero hinoun kung sa france pd ka mamalengke why not? sayang wla ko kita og sharon gabie. ingon nila ky ngkanta daw c sharon and kc! dghan daw kaayo og diamonds c sharon...haha! maayo pa ni c sharon...wla mn nko na-imagine sa akong life ng diamond intawon oie...bato na lng ni darna pwede? or ni captain barbel? aww! naa ba na cyay bato? haha

...last namo nga nastoryahan ky ang Ateneo de Davao. kbalo bah mu na top 5 daw ang AdDU sa survey sa mga top universities in the philippines? (source ky c padotz!) shocks mn c jordan! haha naa pd diay ibuga ang school nani...pero hinoun pg mkabalo ang tao na sa ateneo ka ngskwela ky murag mabilib mn cla...para sa mga tgamindanao lng cgro na mgapply...i dunno if nationwide ba na nga impression, mas dghan pa mn ayus na skul gd. pero anyway, top 5 or not dli na machange ang fact na dri mi natagak na school. human ngmeet mi tanan. hehe! maayo na lng sd oi nga nag-IT ko!

...kung isipon ordinary lng mn among mga gipangstoryahan...ordinary lng sd nga day... pero maski unsa cya kasimple and kaordinary mkasmile ghapon ka bsta i-appreciate lng nmo ang moment!

dli man diay complicated ang life kung kabalo lng ka unsa imong gusto buhaton! *_*

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Jan 9, 2007

On Change


[ mood | | confuse ]

[ music | ready to rise by vaughan penn ]




"Sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are."

-from Mouth of One Tree Hill


It's probably late for this but I'm still gonna make my list of resolutions this year. I gave my self a week to ponder on what aspect of my life is in need of serious reconstruction. I reckon they'll be plenty, since I've been living a really healthy lifestyle (insert sarcastic smile here).

Unless you take a look at yourself closely you'll never discover the person you've become. I learned in my Philosophy class that human beings set an "ideal vision" of himself and then direct his life towards achieving that. I used to imagine myself to be "this" and "that" (basically putting together the "ideal me" vision). Funny thing is I didn't exert any effort at all to achieve what I want.Unconsciously I turned out to be someone I don't recognize. The last time I check, I was just trying to make the most out of my mundane life. Now, I wonder why I arrived in a conclusion that in a way I am a stranger to my own. Weird huh? There are instances wherein I'm surprise by the way I react to others, especially my family. I became this dense/hotheaded/selfish person. It was never my intention to hurt people's feelings. Its just that when you're in a sour mood you tend to forget that the world doesn't revolve on you alone. You do or say things you don't really mean then regret it later. Other people exist and they are not required to bend just to please you. I appreciate those who are brave and honest enough to confront me about my attitude. They're usually the ones who care. Normally we have no idea how others perceive us. The last thing I want is to be misunderstood. If you happen to know me, please tell me who I am (harhar). I got lost and now I'm confused. Do you think I'm being too hard on myself? or maybe I'm exaggerating? Yeah well, think whatever you want. You're entitled to that anyway.

Looking back is such a disappointment, specially when you realized that you've wasted your time doing stuff that you shouldn't be doing. Technically, that will count as a mistake right? I consider myself an optimistic person so I view mistakes in a bright light. A chance to learn and grow. But sometimes there are habits that are so hard to do away with. Even if we get burn a hundred times, we never learn to let go. Like its much easier to hold on than to take the risk and face the dreading change.



No matter how excruciating it is. Sometimes in order to move forward, we have to go back. There are things in the past we've left behind that keeps us from moving forward. Guilt and regret are so far the toughest emotion to deal with. More than anger they poison our soul, blocking us from the freedom of growth and change. Acceptance will do the trick. If not to eliminate at least ease the burden. Life is built to be random. You'll never know what will be thrown your way. The only sane way to survive is to move on.

I truly believe that happiness is a choice. I'm maybe experiencing a difficult phase in my life but it is not enough reason to give up. The fact that I'm still young, possibilities of harder obstacles is certain. I am not raising the white flag 'til I ran out of reasons to live. Kudos to those who continue to fight their battle vigorously. The change you desire is just a wish away. Don't let other people dampen your spirit. As for me, I'm still hoping to repair the damage I made to myself. With the uncertainties I'm faced now, a lifestyle change won't come easy. But its never too late if you have the faith.

So here are some of the resolutions I made.

  • save, save and save
  • sleep early
  • stop drinking
  • take care of my health (this is a must)
  • quit being a procrastinator (consistent in my list)
  • value the purpose of cellphone (in other words mgreply!)
  • laugh, love, learn and live
  • be a better person
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